Monday, February 19, 2007

Retina Fold

Same Entry as the other journal because I want this to be read by as many people as possible, not that I have that many journal readers.....

Acceptance

I am not doing so well. I went to the eye doctor (specialist) and got drops, for my regular checkup.  I keep a close guard on my eyes as my Mom had macular degeneration and became blind and my sister has glaucoma.

The doctor said to me that I have a "retina fold" on my left eye.  That explains the vision change I have noticed and it's been bothering me for a few months.  I was hoping it was that my cataract had grown, but that is not it.

The whole point is, this isn't correctible.  It can't be "fixed."  Cataracts can, & I will eventually have surgery on both of mine when they are ready.

But I will never see like I did before this DAMN retina fold, with or without glasses.

I know I am assuming the worst, but I can't help my mood, I am scared. Everything I like to do requires my eyes!

If anyone has this or has heard of this, or would just like to offer me some aid in dealing with the acceptance of this condition, please, oh please email me.  I am in the pits.  I don't know if I can take any more things being wrong with me.

Yeah, I know I am full of myself right now, but I can't seem to help it.  I have so many things that can't be fixed.  My neck, my back, my feet, and you know I am sick of it.

I also am bright enough to realize I should be counting my blessings and looking at all the conditions and diseases that I do NOT have. And I will, I promise I will.  Just right now, I am like a little kid stomping my feet and saying, "I don't like this, I don't like this one bit!"

HELP!

Love, Merry

3 comments:

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))))))))You will be in my prayers.Have a nice day.

nanmm11 said...

Hi Merry,
I'm sorry to say I don't know anything about this and its very understandable why you are in the mood that you are. You have every right to be full of yourself as you say as yes the eyes are extremely important to us all. I sincerely hope everything works out for you and the worst does not happen. xxxooo
                                                                     Nancy

rebuketheworld said...

Oh, Merry, I am soooooooooooooooo sorry. I wish you had emailed me about this.I know I havent had as much Internet time as usual but this is something I wish I had known about. I can understand the fear and worry. WE all would feel that way. Have you written or researched the top research hostiptals. Hopkins?....I wonder if there are any other options. ~Raven